Thursday, July 17, 2008
friends forever

i have been through a lot today. I'm having gas pains when i woke up this morning, plus I'm having terminal dysuria. I wasn't in the mood to attend my review sessions this morning but I did. Good thing i did not absent cause i got good grades. But all through out the class i was having urinary pains so right after, I went directly to the hospital and went for a urinalysis. At the end of the day I found out I have: bacteria = TMTC. It was the first time I heard it. I was expecting: bacteria = ++++, but no, i got TMTC, stands for too many too count. For short I have a UTI.
I've been drinking liters of water but its still painful everytime I pee and after.

Its almost midnight and my eyes are so tired but im not sleepy at all. I dont wanna go to sleep and be bothered by things that would make me cry.

See, i have a weak defense. I get intimidated easily and I cry for no reason at all. Im paranoid and I think people I care for doesn't care about me at all.

I was browsing through the net earlier this night to find out these friends of mine somewhat forgotten me as their friend. Well, that was what I thought and im still thinking about it. I believe I had established a special bond with them, but I dont think they had considered me to be part of them.
If youre reading this now, it would all be confusing cause I refuse to share more specific details about why I felt this way.

Well, I guess if i feel that way with them maybe indeed they are doing something to make me feel this way and not merely me being paranoid.

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pondering more about this matter... if they are truly my friend, they would still make me feel that im part of them even if i cant hang out with them anymore.

and i just realized while i am typing this blog directly out of my mind that FRIENDSHIP is a relationship that shoul be handled with care as much as it takes to keep a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship stronger.

and i just thought, the friendship i had with those so-called friends of mine is not worth taking extra care for.

after all, i have better and sincere friends worth keeping.

and here are them:


back in grade five

some time in highschool

on junior high i think

senior high

js prom


high school graduation

second year college, on aissa's debut



august 2007 triple birthday party

summer 2008


present - july 05, 2008

with my very special guy friend and my best friend since kinder